Cries of a Curious Follower

Until we understand how to be present, to be us now, to sit with where we are exactly, we will not be able to be where God wants us. Psalm 46:10 compels us to just stop. Quit kicking, screaming, or pretending.

Sit in your half tended garden, in that pile of ashes that embarrass you. Right there. Sit. Be still. Quiet your mind. And stare at the One who paid the price for your freedom.

In that moment, you might just experience His love for you as He intends. Love now, as you are. Not as you want to be or as you hope to be. AS YOU ARE.

Some translations say it this way: Cease striving. In many ways, I like that better because it exposes us in our religious fantasies. If we, in that moment, just “sit and quit,” then we might just receive the mercy meant for us today. In the now.

Better yet, we will learn something about ourselves and about the One who loves us so completely. It is true that in the scheme of time on this physical plane of awareness that I’m not who I was; nor am I who I will be. But if my attention isn’t squarely on the reality of who I am, then how can I possibly receive what God has to give me in this moment?

Too often, we find ourselves somehow playing a spiritual game of “where’s waldo?” But we must not be so discontented with who we are in the now that we live in a seemingly disassociated state of pretend.

Or worse, to make everyone around us miserable because we are constantly fighting what is for what we prefer!

Lord, please help us to sit in your Presence long enough to let our shoulders relax, our eyes to leak, and our disguises to fall off. Lovingly expose us! And each time we try to get up and find ourselves somewhere else, remind us that we are HERE. Now.

And that’s perfectly ok. As long as we sit still long enough to KNOW that You are God. Only then, will each piece of ash be exchanged properly for the beauty you intend.

SELAH.